Well I've been in California for almost 7 months now...and I have just 10 weeks left. Still after all the time of being here I sit with this question: how do you make people that have everything see that really all that need and all that is of worth is Jesus?
I just don't know how to reach the most beautiful, wealthy, comfortable people in the world.
All I do know is that if they truely would experience Jesus- authentic, real...then they would never want anything more.
Lord save us from our comfortability.

My heart is torn apart when I think about leave San Luis Obispo...it's become my home in so many ways. I long to see these youth encounter God in such a radical way that will change and challenge the world around them.

I leave May 8th. And I will leave apart of me here.
A blessing this time has been. Forever I will be changed.

Sweet time. So short.

Complacent consistency
Grotesque Rotted Heart
Soul suffocating
Pride Refusing to Part
Drowning in Self-Satisfaction
Dieing to Heal My Soul
Cascading to the End of Me...

I've recently adopted a quote from Derek Webb that says:
I want to shed light into the dark places where I hide so that I won't hide
there anymore...I no longer judge my Christianity by how well I hide my sin...

FREEDOM FOUND IN CHAINS
THE PARADOX OF LOVE...
AS MERCY FALLS,
FEAR IS RELEASED.
FINDING MYSELF
WITHIN HIS GAZE
COMPLETE IN HIS EMBRACE
JOY BEYOND FATHOM
I DARE NOT SPEAK...
MY GREATEST ADMIRER
YET IT'S NO ME HE SEES-
BUT ONE SO MUCH GREATER
THE PERFECTOR OF THIS LOVE

As I pray for the Lord to continue to shed light into the
dark places that threaten to take me back...I'm met with
the compelling love of Christ that beacons me into Him..
Fear of what it will mean for me to be completely exposed...
and without condemnation...grips me. Yet I'm drawn
into His arms...grateful I no longer have to hide.
Learning to live vulnerable.

Sweet Surrender
Free from Chains
Death of Self
Bound to Him
To Die is Gain
He's Enough
All I Need...
I am Healed
as i watch HIM bleed...